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It sucks to live inside this pain
I wish it would go away
No clue as how tomorrow will be
I live with this, day to day
It’s silent, so you can’t see it
Trust me, it’s there, how I know!
Please understand what I’m saying
This is something I’ll never outgrow
There’s this fire that burns inside me
A fire that will never go out
It’s been 12 long years of questions
And I’m still not sure, what it’s about
Depression’s a very big part of it
It’s hard to be happy, you see
But I try my best to wear a smile
So people will see only me
I’ve often wondered why
God chose me to take on this fight
I’m sure he had a good reason
Though what it is, is not black and white
I battle each day to move forward
Trying hard not to let it get me down
Sleepless nights always follow me
The sandman, perhaps, has left town
I’m in no way looking for pity
It would never describe who I am
Just consider what lives inside of me
And for God’s sake, give a damn
Don’t go off, talking, behind my back
I’m not lazy, it hurts just to move
Think twice before you judge me
You see, to you, I have nothing to prove
Only to myself, do I answer
And to my Lord, who I endlessly trust
Take time to understand, I’m human, too
Being cruel just makes you unjust
I will continue to fight this battle
I refuse to throw down my sword
If I can make one person understand
That would be more than any reward
If you’ve read this far, I thank you! The links below may better help you understand the silent diseases many of us live with. All I’m asking is that you always remember to be kind to others. We are all fighting our silent battles.
Transverse Myelitis
Sjogren’s Syndrome
Fibromyalgia
Osteoarthritis
Lupus
MS
Depression
Bipolar Disorder
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Night Owl Poetry - Dorinda Duclos 
Thank you for being a voice for so many. Like you I prefer to show my poetic side, but there is always that other – lurking. Be well.
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Yes, always lurking. Be well also, my friend 🙂
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Nice to see you on Twitter too!
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Yes! I didn’t know you had an account until I shared your post lol
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haha – have to love synchronicity
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I’m so sorry that you must endure this, Dorinda. I can relate, having suffered Depression most of my life, and chronic pain issues that worsen with age. And like you, I’m not complaining–I have much to be grateful for–but it’s hard when people have less sympathy for “invisible” illness/conditions. We’re not “imagining” our difficulties, nor are we “seeking attention”–good grief! God bless you richly, and be assured I’ll add you to my nightly prayers ❤
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Thank you so very much! And yes, we are the silent sufferers who get the “you look fine” line. You will be in my prayers as well, my friend ❤
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Oh, bless you for that, Dorinda!! ❤
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Well done, Dorinda
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Thank you very much, Derrick 🙂
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So sorry for your continuing health problems. You are so gifted as a poet, I often forget the problems you face. Nudge us occasionally to remind us (me) to keep you in prayer and some encouraging words along the way. 😀
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Thank you, Oneta. I never want my illness to define who I am. I don’t talk much about it. I hope you’re doing well. It’s good to see you posting again ❤️😊
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Hugs to you and your daughter for all you’ve both had to endure. I hope none of it will ever keep you from your writing. I would miss you so so much. Love and prayers… xoxo
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Thank you, dear friend! That means so much. I actually have voice software so unless they gag me, I can still “write” 😉
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Well I’m certainly glad to hear that! 😉
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😃
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With you in Spirit, Dorinda.
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Thank you kindly, David 😊
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Totally relate, may you feel healing my lovely friend
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Thank you, Candy….I hope you’re feeling better, dear friend. You’ve certainly been through hell.
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An eye opener for those who are blessed with everything yet complain…Wishing you good health, peace and strength 🙏
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Thank you very much for your kind words ❤
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Interesting read D…never heard of some if those…the things folk have to live with…
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Between my daughter and myself, we can check the box next to 5 of the 8 listed. It’s rough, but you learn to deal with it. I let it out in my writing 🙂
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Oh gosh that must be really tough. That’s some serious resilience !
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It is, but we’re both fighters. 😉
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I give a damn! And I would never judge you! You know how I feel about you my friend ☺❤ I have degenerative discs in my back and osteoarthritis in my left knee. The knee replacement on my right knee is still painful after 5 months. I can relate to your pain. Mine has only been for 7 years now. People do judge us Dorinda They will never understand..
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I never have to worry about you, Walt. It’s those who never look below the surface. If they can’t see it, then it isn’t true. ☹️
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Wishing you good health and happiness. Be well.
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Thank you, Drew. This is something that will never go away, no cure, but hey, I’m alive. i can deal with it 🙂
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Yes, you are alive and you can still enjoy life.
That is something I remind myself everyday. So I live forever grateful.
Be well.
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Thank you, you too 🙂
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May you know peace in the storm. 🙏
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Thank you, Dennis. I always look up and find it 🙂
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